Fear alarm

Hey! ‘’What do you fear the most?’’

Well, height? Umm cockroach? Psycho Killers? Violence?

Thought for a bit of time.

At night, the last thought to my mind was ‘’ What do I fear the most?’’ ‘’Whom do I fear?‘’

I fear,

What if my healthy body suddenly gets diagnosed with any illness?

What if I speak that I would never want it to be spoken by someone else’s mouth?

What if my eyes see an illusion and convince myself as ‘’truth’’?

What if my nose smells poverty but leaves them in helplessness?

What if I hear from my ears and it becomes the reason for wrong decisions?

What if my hair gets tangled with cravings for cosmetics pulling me towards materialism?

What if my neck suddenly denies to be a voice for the underprivileged?

What if my legs never walk to loved ones but always itches to move just to earn money?

What if my body becomes ‘a machine’ before feeling ‘alive’?

I fear my heart,

I fear what if my heart overreact in joy that I shall pay a price for afterwards,

What if my heart easily quit in small rejections?

What if I stop following my heart because of choosing a wrong person?

What if it avoids the entrance of the right person because the time wasn’t right?
What if I stop listening to its intuition?

What if it manipulates my logic and analysis?

What if my heart becomes ‘’as cold as ice’’?

What if my heart gets too ‘’emotional than necessary’’?

Most fearful is the - ‘brain’

I doubt what if it's impulse, makes mistake for a lifetime,

What if the impressions were just a mere manipulation of what it wants to imprint?

What if all it does is to generate negative energy?

What if it rejects the simplicity of ‘Life is beautiful’?

What if it slaves us to learning?

What if it abandons small reasons to smile?

What if it reverses my strengths?

What if I become one against humanity someday?

What if I get driven by desires which in reality is the reason of affliction?

What if I forget worldly duties in the name of spirituality?

What if ?

What if I hurt people to maintain my well-being?

What if I see all ‘dark’ instead of ‘light’, all ‘death’ instead of ‘life’?

What if I see only ‘flaws’ replaced for ‘forgiveness’?

What if I see only ‘pain’ over ‘blessings’?

What if I see ‘self harm’ taking over ‘kindness’?

What if I get triggered by ‘suicide’ over ‘survival’?

What if I refuse my importance over the success of others?

What if I train my insecurities to influence my fears?

What if I see ‘me and only me’ over ‘us, we and ours’?

What if I reject myself, what if you reject you… I fear me.