Let’s meet in parallel universe

You swerved your head on the other side of the park

People are smelling our incompatibility

I’m trying so hard to revive myself in order to look normal

What am I doing ? What are we doing ?

 

Your presence tickled my thoughts

It felt like all my prayers for love got heard 

“Unlike poles attract” they say

Did we just attract with a mere loose thread of contradiction ?

 

 I saw you, I saw you as my soulmate for rest of the days

Now there is no looking back, I dyed-in-the wool, you are mine, now and forever

How is it possible to be part of someone’s life just like that?

How is it possible to embrace someone in my precious dream? 

 

I didn’t see your face, it fades anytime soon

I didn’t see your personality, it gets subjective with varied situations

I didn’t see your academics, it is replaceable

I didn’t see your background, it is temporary 

I saw you as a whole.

 

You,

You just wanted to live in the moment

You just wanted to enjoy the presence of the body

I mean yes, why would anyone fall in trap of unpredictability of future

Why would anyone feel sad while thinking and killing the present? 
 

Contrastingly, 

I’m unlike you, as simple as that sounds, complicated it feels

I tried so hard to be like you, think like you

I tried to think you as just a company for this undestined place

I tried to bring a non-lasting smile in my face to live in the moment 

Suddenly I realized in this course of time, I lost my dreams

My promises, my wishes, my desires that had you in it

Everyday I felt grateful to have you as a reason to live up for tomorrow 

My dream was blank now, it was gone, in just snap of fingers

 

Everyone shall face death someday, unknowingly so what is there to think for something that goes out of our will right? 

You are not wrong, I guess a bit different than me, that’s it

Why be so dead serious like an old man while you can just chill and live young energy

Why ruin today for tomorrow, obviously

However,

The thing that you find essence in, unfortunately didn’t fascinate me

It suffocated me instead,

If I happen to pass by trees, I can’t ask if we will be having some time into the woods away from hustle of the city someday 

If I happen to see children, I couldn’t express my love for babies, to have with you

If I happen to see a bride, I can’t share my … uff just forget it

More importantly, I even  can’t ask you if you will be there for me, some moments later

 

I felt lost

I do acknowledge your efforts too, to be alike me

Like promising with long messages on my birthday and Valentine’s Day

Like showing my photos to your parents

Like talking about our love in front of friends even when you were half-conscious drinking booze

 

Sadly,

I also know that you have lost yourself in between

You started overthinking as I do for “us”

You wanted to see me happy, but how could an unhappy person in himself make me happy? Huh?

Was it worth it? Was maintaining the relationship worth in stake of your merriment?

 

Eventually, we landed onto the place we feared, a long silence and internal storms

Weren’t we supposed to create a beautiful colors with our authentic shades

But we overshadowed our vividness amidst the reflection of each other

“I’m sorry I have to give up on you now” or 

“We need to chose our a way of happiness always”

You are free to paraphrase these words anyway you like, my love.