TO ALL THE SUNSHINES, TO ALL THE SHADOWS

Dear Shristi, 

I know these days you are having a rough patch handling new ever guests in your face, acne. Wow! I had always told you that nothing remains the same, everything is temporary. Gone are those days when you need to do nothing to radiate that charming glow in your face. I mean what the hell are you talking about? Your face will develop wrinkles, your cheeks will start becoming saggy, you will grow old, But chill, you are also temporary. So smile more even though it can give you ‘’laugh lines’’, it is temporary but the vibes you send through it are priceless. I would recommend you to laugh often but I know you are so embarrassed with your braces on to show your ‘’not-so-good’’ teeth so adjust with a ‘’not-so-beautiful’’ smile for more than a few years. 

By 2020, I have realized that you have never been the best as you think of yourself. There are always people better in terms of beauty, wisdom, integrity, personality and virtues. You were wrong on that first attempt itself. The conclusion to all the things that exists on earth are not part of any extremes but a part of a neutral point. Any debate is worthless. It is only the time that brings superiority over a topic.   

You always wanted to be the ‘’rose’’ for others, but you were a sunflower. Of Course, less fortunate than roses, less celebrated as roses, less romanticized as roses. You wanted to bloom to the direction of the sun, to bask in that warmth and joy. But there was nothing necessary to be a ‘’rose’’ either. You can never take the place of ‘’rose’’ so just shimmer down. Let ‘’roses’’ be celebrated, why are you hankering so much ? If you keep being selfish like this, then we can’t be friends, mind it. Actually I don’t actually find you beautiful either but you don’t have a choice. Let me confess to you, honestly, I am finding certain beauty in you because Thank God you are not made up of silicon and fillers. I know as a young lady you have trouble with insecurities about your physical appearance, as people say, but basically it’s fine. Judging others and expecting others not to judge is false. I know people say inner beauty is everything, but who sees the heart. Heart is such an illusion, perception of this inner beauty is conflicting so as the outer beauty, it is so subjective. So take no shit on inner and outer beauty, just live young energy and freedom.

I know as you have started becoming a lady, a lot of things do bother you consciously and subconsciously. Now you can’t rely on your parents or friends to do many things, you should learn to take charge on your own. Take charge of your mistakes, verbal blunders, actions, responses, decisions, future and for god sake stop making excuses. You have  always been fascinated by dreams, dreams are beautiful. However in life, only magic happens, something different, something complicated. There is no need to choose anything over ‘’happiness’’, it’s always a choice,

Emotions do hold power but be wise to overpower your emotions.

I almost forgot, please stop being lazy, you fatso. Stop your procrastination, it will lead you nowhere. I see you postponing everything till eleventh hours, why are you obsessed with procrastination for such a temporary relaxation. There is a discipline to life and a destiny to be paid. You are always in great haste to do nonsense things but when it comes to real work, you start being childish, why? I know it’s winter and it’s cold (obviously) but instead of exercising you are busy sleeping and dreaming to be healthy and fit, why? Skipping carbohydrates of rice and eating bread, junk foods won’t make you lose unnecessary fat also. Although, I can consider your body positivity, it’s wonderful to find. But excessive reliance on fast foods can cause serious trouble once you hit the age ok, remember that. It doesn’t need a new year to make resolutions so that you forget tomorrow. Every second your cells are repairing, so every time you can start adopting good habits. Your habits will make your tomorrow. You know you will hate me for saying words that might build up your insecurity but adopting to harshness of criticism is the only way to get immune to criticisms, babe.

‘’Karma’’ is real, never believe you lost something somewhere. It will always pay your price at some point of time, always. I know there were sunshine and unpredictable shadows in your life. I am super proud of you girl, and I mean it. There were so many words, hands, love, relations that you should always be grateful for healing. Never forget them. Every sunshine comes with a different message, some sunshine are powerful enough to touch your soul but some sunshine can cause cancer. Either way, being blessed to see the sunshine is a bliss itself.

I know you have not reached anywhere around your ‘’dreams’’, you fear that it remains fulfilled. I am always dumbfound seeing you suffer within. I know it is not doing good to you. I don’t want to console you either, I just want you to trust yourself in many parts of life when no one's around, when you are in utmost loneliness, when you are in verge of quitting. I have no words rather than ''Best wishes'’.

I was planning to write a lot, but I think you will always choose your blissful sleep over my long lectures. Haha… okay sleep, I am so happy that you are not struggling to have a sleep. You can’t envision how life would become if there was a struggle ... just to get a peaceful sleep night.

I will forgive you this year, I forgive you every time. Forgive everyone around you, Shristi. Let it go from your heart.

World deserves love, only love.