Wholly Holi???

Wholly Holi!!!

Beloved One,

 I was there to celebrate Holi festival. A festival of colour. Excitement and joy. I was with my silent mind but with an orientation. Holi had been started. In the crowd, hundreds of people,were exploring Holi, however I was alone. The first reason was that I had been waiting for..., The second reason was that I didn't wanna play Holi with anyone else except....., And the final reason was that I didn't want to be explained by the colour offered by someone else except......

My first Holi, I had to celebrate. But I was welcoming with my stunned situation. A real feelings never die. That was not the issue. The real matter was that my expectations. Because I was waiting and all.

I wish I could have been hurted. But I request my heart to be calmed.

I wish I could celebrate. There may be some truth in what that expected one said, but I was fool. I pretended like I agreed, but absolutely I didn't. I have never had anything like this. The time had been so painful. I was insane. Consequently, I couldn't see anything against my thoughts. I was in favor of my insistence. That was all very well, until I cried. I started to cry. My eyes were seeking. My mind was waiting. But I couldn't do anything else. I gave up. I cried a lot. People often say the holi festival brings you happiness but I am wondering where that happiness gone. Or else it is not meant to me? That was not easy for me, but the feelings were inevitable. I took my point but that's not the way I saw it. Perhaps, I couldn't help thinking that what is actually happened to....!!

It was difficult to say, but I was with my harmful expectations, toxic purposes and obviously that was not for useful acquisitions. I missed you a lot. See you in next Holi. I will be waiting for you, your presence and your colour. One day we will definitely have wholly Holi.

Eventually, This much for today. I am wishing for your bright day and life, will always pray for you. I love you.

Yours!

KOPILA DHUNGANA